Too much "life" going on...

I haven't had time to blog, or energy, since the last when I began this. Have had more surgeries for other things and now walk with a cane. Life goes on when we're making other plans. I wish I had the energy to even just clean my apartment! Radiation took all my energy away and it hasn't found it's way back yet.

I'm still wondering about a lot of things, although I've come to the conclusion that prayer for me does NOT work. I pray and things go wrong. I still wonder if there could be an afterlife without a "GOD" in it??? No one has been able to answer that. I've hung around different sites that offer debates between Christians and atheists, but the atheists usually make more sense and don't consign you to a "hell" if you don't agree with them. Christians can be just plain nasty!

Hopefully I'll get back here again soon. I just feel NO ONE is really going to want to read this anyway. Oh well, I tried.

Trying something new here!

This is my first attempt at blogging. I'm not sure what I'm doing or how to do it. Could use some advice from frequent bloggers. I chose my title, Wondering Away, Day by Day because lately I've been wondering just where I'm goin with my life and what I really believe in. For example, I wonder a lot about religion. I've tried everything from my basic upbringing as a Lutheran, to Methodist after marriage, dabbling in Buddhism, Wicca, New Age and now not really any spiritual direction. Am I agnostic? I don't know. I have been fighting breast cancer since last December which can be a wake up call to who and what you are and who and what you believe in. They asked me when registering for my surgeries if I had a religious preference. Do I? NO, not really. When you tell people that you get silence and a weird look. But if it's the truth, what else can I say? Wicca appealed to me for a while, but can you be Wiccan and not believe in gods and godesses? Can there be an afterlife without a god in it?

This is all hard for me as I also believe in the paranormal. I've had some pretty extraordinary experiences in my life along those lines. So this confuses me, too. Where do we go when we die? Does our "energy" move on in some way?

SO here I am, wondering away, day by day!